Im more depressed than I have been in a while. Yet I just dont care enough to be upset. Nothing is going right, but hey, thats life. I dont expect anything from anyone anymore. I dont know what else can go wrong. [knock on wood] I feel as if ive lost so many people in these past few days, its crazy. Everything was going ok. WHAT THE FUCK WENT WRONG?! HOW THE FUCK DO I FIX IT?! Im out a best friend now, which leaves me with Bekah. Thats pretty much it. I mean, I have Brianna too, who I love dearly. Nothing will break us apart. 
I haven't talked to Megan in I dont even know how long, I dont really talk to Kaitlin or Marijah, ever. Michelle is being a little cunt ass bitch. I just want my shirt back, thats all. I dont want to see her again, I dont want to talk to her again, JUST DROP IT OFF AT MY FUCKING PARENTS HOUSE DAMN IT! OR THROW IT IN MY MOTHERFUCKING YARD OR SOMETHING. ITS NOT THAT DAMN DIFFICULT. 

All I wanted to do yesterday was cry. Just sit in my room, turn the lights off, and just cry my little heart out. whats left of it. Yet instead, Me and Bekah just sat around, laughing. Laughing at how angry I was becoming and how stupid some people are these days, its ridiculous. 
I guess its a good thing that im staying in Wilmington. Since im a horrible friend and all. YES, IM THE HORRIBLE FRIEND. 
IM NOT THE ONE THAT FUCKING STOLE MY FRIENDS FAVORITE SHIRT. IM NOT THE ONE THAT FUCKING SHOT UP HEROIN IN HER BEST FRIENDS CAR. AT HER FUCKING HOUSE, WHILE SHE WAS TRIPPING MUSHROOMS. IM NOT THE ONE WHOS BEING THE LITTLE BITCH. GROW THE FUCK UP MICHELLE. I LOVE HOW YOU LIED TO MY MOTHERFUCKING FACE THEN TRIED TO STRENGTHEN OUR FRIENDSHIP, JUST SO EVERYONE ON FUCKING RALEIGH COULD FIND OUT WHAT HAPPENED AND ID BE THE LAST TO KNOW. I HOPE YOU SHOOT UP AGAIN ACTUALLY, AND I HOPE IT MAKES YOU SICK AS HELL. MAYBE YOU'LL GET AN INFECTION OR SOMETHING. MOTHERFUCKER, YOU DONT FUCKING SHOOT UP IN MY GOD DAMN CAR, ITS MOTHERFUCKING HEROIN FREE YOU LITTLE JUNKIE BITCH. THEN YOU HAVE THE FUCKING NERVE TO CALL ME A FUCKING WHORE AND TELL ME THAT IM SLUTTING MYSELF AROUND. THATS FUCKING LOW. OH MY GOD, 5 GUYS IN 7 MONTHS. HOLY SHIT IM SUCH A FUCKING WHORE. I WAS DATING TWO OF THEM, AND THE OTHERS IT WAS JUST ONCE. AND YOU FUCKING SAID THAT I SHOULD HAVE SEX WITH TWO OF THEM. YOU WANTED TO FUCKING JOIN EVEN. SO DONT FUCKING GIVE ME THAT SHIT. YOU'VE SLEPT WITH AS MANY GUYS AS ME, IF NOT MORE. SO I GUESS YOURE JUST AS MUCH OF A WHORE AS I AM.

Whatever, it doesn't really fucking matter. Im done. Im done with it all. Nothing really matters anymore. I dont know who I can really trust, and who I can't. Since I seem to trust everyone and that blows up in my motherfucking face. And the one person I do care about cant even pick up a phone to call me. Im really not that important. Im just here to be here. fuck it.