And the downward spiral has started again. Sometimes theres no stopping it. I feel as if im falling faster than I have in a while. I can't even explain it. I was perfectly happy, at the top of my game. All the sudden I hit rock bottom and scrapped myself on the way down. I feel like I need change. I need a change of scenery. I need a change in everything. I have two classes now, and I could really care less if I pass or not. 

This is bad. I feel like this is the loneliest day ive had in quite awhile.
and yet, I am unable to cry.

I smoke way too many cigarettes for the way im coughing my lungs up.