I dont know how I feel anymore, I dont know what to think. I dont know what is true and what is make-believe. I dont know what I want, And I really dont know what to do. I just wish there was a pause button, or fast forward. That'd be nice.
Every situation has its ups and downs. It seems as if mostly all of situations going on are half good, half bad. I dont know what outweighs what. I tend to put myself in awkward situations, knowing very well that it will spice of up life, and I probably wont know what to do. I get myself in trouble that way. Currently, I have mixed feelings about everything. I dont know who to talk to anymore, everyone seems bias. 
I talk to Bekah about everything mostly, its nice. We give eachother advice and make silly ass comments on things. I still believe she is bias herself though. 
I dont know, Michelle and I are fighting. I really dont care to talk to her anytime soon. I hate when we exchange dirty nasty words. It kind of makes me sick, and I get very angry. Then again, fuck it. People come and go all the time right? If I never met Michelle, I would have just met someone else. We always have the opportunity  to meet other people. To say fuck you. Im tired of dealing with a lot of shit. Im tired of hearing bullshit. Im tired of arguing. Im tired of not knowing what to do. IM FUCKING TIRED OF NOT HAVING ANY ANSWERS! Answers to anything, it seems as if everything is unfinished or starting, or somethings missing. 

Its all groovy though, This shit is going to tear me apart from the inside over the next few weeks.
I just want to be happy, I want to be content. I dont want to have to worry. I dont want to have to bitch.
I WANT PEACE DAMN IT!
I want to go to sleep for a few days. I can't though.
And my exam is wednesday.
I still have yet to study. shit, it'll happen though.
After that, im catching up on sleep, and starting to get tan and going to the beach.


Ugh,
I just wish I knew what the fuck is going on. Whats the god damn deal yo. Dont leave me hanging.