Things are headed in the right direction.

Im naming my octopus Ziggy, and I am so totally diggin him.

I dream of something real, something unbreakable.

we might have found a place. sweeeet.

This is going to be a good summer. I feel like im on top of my game. I feel powerful, I feel strong, I feel beautiful.
Lets do this.

im drunk too much these days

tonight was a good night. I dont know what it is about him, but theres something there that just makes me want to pounce on him.

im smiling.

hes not mad at me, and he doesn't hate me.
and im drunk.
im happy.

There was a funky vibe in the air today. It made me feel very uncomfortable.

Chicago in 3 weeks or something.

London trip in the making.

Happiness died in my hands tonight.

daydreaming has become a challenge ever since i was incapable of remembering your face. Ive blocked good and bad out of most situations. I can't place myself or others in memories anymore, I can just remember surroundings.

Rest in peace daddy Dew.

'I mean, you're always welcome here.'

He is my one exception oddly enough.

Im so wrapped up in these books. in these movies. in these shows. Im losing my sense of reality. My mood is changing more quickly than it normally does. They're all taking over. I really have no desire to do anything but go to work and sit in my room for the rest of the time getting lost in these fantasies, and in other peoples lives. Im merely watching time flying by. Im waiting. I couldn't necessarily say what im waiting for because even I am not aware. There is something worth waiting for though. Its coming. Its on its way. I still have a while to wait though. Hope is not yet lost at this point, and thats what matters.